College Picking

Most situations in life end up with only you choosing the outcome and nobody else can. Others can only guide you. As ambivalent as you may be between which outcome you want, you ultimately only have yourself to turn to and not anybody else. This is kind of where I am right now with choosing which college to go to. Around this time, even last year for me this happened too, I narrow it down to two colleges I am wanting to go to. Both have its pro's and con's, and at the moment, my answer is split 50-50. This is a really hard time in my life because I know this decision will effect the rest of my life. I am kind of jealous of people who know which college they want to go to. Such a hard question easily answered for them.

As I ask my parents, they want me to go to a college I do not want to go to, so they're no help. I remember my guidance counselor in high school said that only I can choose and that nobody else can choose for me.... what a cliche answer. I know that! However I need help. I research my two colleges that I wanted to go to but still... 50-50. Maybe I do need somebody to tell me where to go, or maybe flip a coin? This is hard.

One is in the middle of a small town, about 13,000 people, and the other is in a 230,000+ populated city. Now I'm asked do I like big cities or small towns? Well, it depends on my mood or on the day. Then I am asked do I like class sizes of about 40 or about 300? There again, neither really bothers me much.

Thinking about it, I am really going to have to look at the smallest aspects of each to sway me more to one side.. but really.. I don't have time for that. I have to make my decision in about two weeks. I didn't procrastinate on researching, I am just going to need more I guess. I have friends that go to both so maybe I should ask them too. However, their opinions will differ on the school than mine because obviously everyone likes different things, so maybe interviewing them won't help that much. Oh well.. I will probably pick on the last day on a whim like I did last year.

Some Women Confuse Me

It was a typical Thursday night on March 11th, me sitting on my bed watching T.V. around 9:00 PM, watching some Georgetown vs. Syracuse highlights because the game was earlier that day. Trying to stay awake, at 10:30 PM i switched over to E! News. Hey, it's Ryan Seacrest. Bored, I decided to listen to him because nothing else was on. He sound excited.. he was announcing a new music video. Of who? Then the screen switched to this lady with yellow hair, (not blonde, but yellow) and circular black glasses. Hmmm, I've heard of her. It was Lady Gaga. Now, I'm not a big fan.. at all.. of her, but the upcoming video popped up and I watched it.. all nine minutes.

Afterwards, I didn't know what to say about it. It was weird. Now I don't especially like the Brittany Spears-feel pop sound to her, but the video was outrageous. Telephone feat. Beyonce, the strangest clothes were worn and the plot was about killing people. Wasn't this a clubbing song? Still baffled, I can't find why she is one of the most popular artists in the world.

I looked the video up online two days later and it was viewed 14 million times? In two days? Now I really felt like an outsider. Considering my love for music, I dwelled deeper into why Lady Gaga is so popular. Her clothes have some sort of meaning to her, like art-pieces I'm assuming. It liberates her from being normal. I really don't understand this woman, so I will leave her and her music alone for now.

I actually asked friends of mine who liked her why they did. They went to her clothing write away, making her seem gutsy to wear what she wants. I am thinking she's a role model to some, showing she is not a conformist and she will do what she wants without fear of literally millions of eyes watching her. Even though I am not a fan, I can definately see why millions idolize her while leaving the others in confusion. But maybe there is a deeper reason of why people like her besides her clothes.