My hardest exams are over and it's all downhill from here. There are a couple more things for school I need to finish, like this, but overall my stress level, and probably everyone's is lowering. I noticed I write about stress a lot and it makes me seem like I am a psycho, however I think I don't have much worries at all. I get things done and I know I will. Summer is coming and I am excited for no more homework for a while.
Even though I have a job at a certain restruant part-time, I was told I should have another part-time job by my parents. I'm transfering schools for this fall and the year will cost about $20,000. I'm not that worried and I do see why I need another job, however I will be working the rest of my life, won't I? For like 50 more years of my life, I probably will be working, so why start now when Im young and I have tons to do yet? Plus, I will be making minimum wage at both so it wont count for much anyways.
A job is the only thing I really need for the summer.. anybody got any ideas? I guess I should start early to pay off debt. Oh well, I shouldn't be thinking about debt when summer vacation is in 3 days. Life is a bunch of moments... I'll just worry about whatever when it comes.
Next year I am really excited about because I will be moving out of my parent's house! Them not being nosey about everything I do and them being crazy I wont miss, however me living by myself in a big city will certainly be a change for me. I mean, I still dont know how to do laundry. I know, Im spoiled, but I'm excited to gain "life skills" for when I have to survive by myself with thousands of other students. Oh well, as things are winding down, bigger things seem to be lurking down the street. Lucky me. As I said before, I wont worry about it now and Ill just have fun this summer before next year kills me.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Friday, May 7, 2010
Becoming Good At Something Isn't Always Fun
As im sitting here in Nielsen Tennis area in Madison, I am watching the UW tennis team practice. They're really good and I am kind of envious of them! Some day, I want to be that good at tennis! I doubt I will practice that much ever for tennis though, but maybe something else. They are sending the ball flying into the other court so fast, I would never be able to return it. They come from off over the world to play. One I saw was from the Czec Republic (I think) and the other from Germany. I find it funny when they get mad, they all speak to themselves in their native language. But whatever, they're good. This is making me realize I need to work really hard to accomplish something I love, even though it might get stressful at times.
These players going through intesive drills as I type this now. They are practicing their lobbing, ground stroke, cross-court passes and whatever so fast, and somehow they make it all in. However, when they miss, they yell at themselves. Upon that, the coach is yelling corrections as well. Also, tons of people are watching them too, at the sidelines. My point is this is this all very stressful to them. Even though this is supposed to be a sport for fun, they are taking it very competitively, even in practice. However, i think this is the right attitude to have, and I think we all can relate. Something that is supposed to be fun, we can mad at when we're losing because we want to win.
I suppose I want to be good at a different language, like French. My old football said, "perfect practice makes perfect." He added the first perfect in that phrase because we need to push ourselves during all practice. To become "perfect", you will have obsticles and stress, but push through that and it will make you better at whatever. However, if you just practice and do the bare minimum, of course you won't have stress, but you won't become more skillful.
Watching this still, they were practicing hard for like 1.5 hours now. Hard at work, they are becoming better athletes too. Maybe when I get home, I will force myself to practice French. I know it won't be the most fun thing in the world, however seeing the tennis team's extremely hard drive to dominate at something gives me the adreniline to push through the difficult language of French... Well, at least for today or tomorrow.
These players going through intesive drills as I type this now. They are practicing their lobbing, ground stroke, cross-court passes and whatever so fast, and somehow they make it all in. However, when they miss, they yell at themselves. Upon that, the coach is yelling corrections as well. Also, tons of people are watching them too, at the sidelines. My point is this is this all very stressful to them. Even though this is supposed to be a sport for fun, they are taking it very competitively, even in practice. However, i think this is the right attitude to have, and I think we all can relate. Something that is supposed to be fun, we can mad at when we're losing because we want to win.
I suppose I want to be good at a different language, like French. My old football said, "perfect practice makes perfect." He added the first perfect in that phrase because we need to push ourselves during all practice. To become "perfect", you will have obsticles and stress, but push through that and it will make you better at whatever. However, if you just practice and do the bare minimum, of course you won't have stress, but you won't become more skillful.
Watching this still, they were practicing hard for like 1.5 hours now. Hard at work, they are becoming better athletes too. Maybe when I get home, I will force myself to practice French. I know it won't be the most fun thing in the world, however seeing the tennis team's extremely hard drive to dominate at something gives me the adreniline to push through the difficult language of French... Well, at least for today or tomorrow.
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Finals with Friends
Since we have about two weeks left of school, teachers are cracking down and giving out their last tests or projects before the exam days. All of them seem to do that at the same time it seems, as for every class I have something big to finish or study for for next week. This part of the year always comes the same for most; study hard for finals. Well, that's no fun, but that is what most are doing now.
As people are busy for whatever class, everyone seems to become stressed about not getting things done in time or doing bad at exams. I do this too, but I don't think I should. I should just to the work and try not to worry, even though worrying comes naturally this time of the school year. I mean, I usually do well at exams so why should I stress? But I do. Maybe a normal feeling of a load of jobs piled onto you does create stress, even though the outcome will be fine in the end. I should just relax as I study.
Obviously, stressing helps nothing positive, so why stress about finals in the first place? As said before, it might come natural because we all want to do well, but why have a bad time in the process? I think I need to study with friends, or excersize with studying (somehow). Hmmm, maybe adding a stress reliever like those with studying will make it tolerable and easy. Why just sit by yourself and read a boring book or type an essay? I should have a friend nearby to help me.. it worked before.
Finals shouldn't be that bad if we don't make it bad for ourselves. Me procrastinating doesn't help me much personally, but I can have one day set aside for a "fun" homework day. I should invite friends over on a Sunday so we can all work together and have fun! Even though that sounds cheesy and weird, it will get me more motivated and willing to do more work. However, there needs to be at least one person to keep everyone in order and focused.
Also, go to the Spring Picnic at school the last day of school!
As people are busy for whatever class, everyone seems to become stressed about not getting things done in time or doing bad at exams. I do this too, but I don't think I should. I should just to the work and try not to worry, even though worrying comes naturally this time of the school year. I mean, I usually do well at exams so why should I stress? But I do. Maybe a normal feeling of a load of jobs piled onto you does create stress, even though the outcome will be fine in the end. I should just relax as I study.
Obviously, stressing helps nothing positive, so why stress about finals in the first place? As said before, it might come natural because we all want to do well, but why have a bad time in the process? I think I need to study with friends, or excersize with studying (somehow). Hmmm, maybe adding a stress reliever like those with studying will make it tolerable and easy. Why just sit by yourself and read a boring book or type an essay? I should have a friend nearby to help me.. it worked before.
Finals shouldn't be that bad if we don't make it bad for ourselves. Me procrastinating doesn't help me much personally, but I can have one day set aside for a "fun" homework day. I should invite friends over on a Sunday so we can all work together and have fun! Even though that sounds cheesy and weird, it will get me more motivated and willing to do more work. However, there needs to be at least one person to keep everyone in order and focused.
Also, go to the Spring Picnic at school the last day of school!
Sunday, April 25, 2010
To aim is not enough.. You must hit.
As the year continues, the thing I need to do keeps on piling on, such as study for tests, work nonstop to make as much money as I can, squeeze in time for whatever sport Im in at the time, and also have time for friends. This actually is my typical day for the entire year for me; kind of uneventful. The things that do force me to change my routined life is my new year's resolutions that I set for myself each year.
Me starting my yearly goals actually started last year, but I plan to set new ones from now on. Last year's was not to eat McDonald's for a year. That was hard for me because I work there and I love the food. This year's is that I have to have some kind of physical activity every weekday in the summer. This might sound nerdy of me to have little goals but nonetheless I like to have goals in general for some reason.
My little goals and me finishing them make me reflect back and notice that I accomplished something this year. Even though everyone finished tons of things each year, New Year's Resolutions are noticed more from me for some reason. Also, it forces me to manage my time better, breaking my routine day which was mentioned before. Decreasing time I have to do each thing in the day increases my organizational skills personally. Also, whatever you accomplish helps you directly of course too. For me, not eating McDonalds and working out intensely has made me healthier. Some people plan to be nicer, volunteer places each week, or whatever. It will personally help you succeed what you want.
I know this isn't for everybody because some don't have the ambition or some are really busy, but forcing yourself to find time for your goal makes this task part of your routine in life if you continue to do it long enough. I had tons of friends say something like, "Wow, I wish I was driven to do something like that." Most of the people that say that are too lazy to find a goal and finish it, not that they can't, they just don't want to spend the extra time doing something foreign and unneeded. Well, for me, my goals help a lot in the long run with my fitness personally. Long-term passion is what people can't see because, "It doesn't work within a week" or "Nothing is in it for me" or "It's not helping me yet". I think it's common sense why goals are helpful.
Me starting my yearly goals actually started last year, but I plan to set new ones from now on. Last year's was not to eat McDonald's for a year. That was hard for me because I work there and I love the food. This year's is that I have to have some kind of physical activity every weekday in the summer. This might sound nerdy of me to have little goals but nonetheless I like to have goals in general for some reason.
My little goals and me finishing them make me reflect back and notice that I accomplished something this year. Even though everyone finished tons of things each year, New Year's Resolutions are noticed more from me for some reason. Also, it forces me to manage my time better, breaking my routine day which was mentioned before. Decreasing time I have to do each thing in the day increases my organizational skills personally. Also, whatever you accomplish helps you directly of course too. For me, not eating McDonalds and working out intensely has made me healthier. Some people plan to be nicer, volunteer places each week, or whatever. It will personally help you succeed what you want.
I know this isn't for everybody because some don't have the ambition or some are really busy, but forcing yourself to find time for your goal makes this task part of your routine in life if you continue to do it long enough. I had tons of friends say something like, "Wow, I wish I was driven to do something like that." Most of the people that say that are too lazy to find a goal and finish it, not that they can't, they just don't want to spend the extra time doing something foreign and unneeded. Well, for me, my goals help a lot in the long run with my fitness personally. Long-term passion is what people can't see because, "It doesn't work within a week" or "Nothing is in it for me" or "It's not helping me yet". I think it's common sense why goals are helpful.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Distractions
It seems that I can never really take the initiative to start homework early. I always work last minute, thinking that I can work better under pressure, but really does it create even more pressure? My homework tactics are definitely atrocious because of my procrastination. I'm sure everyone can relate that you don't always like homework when given, but if I sit down to do it, I always find something else to do, even in a quiet room by myself.
As I said in an earlier blog, pressure of procrastination eliminates those distractions for me, which is a big problem for me. Since I don't have a lot of time anymore, I force myself to focus on only homework. Stacking it all to the end does get rid of my distraction problem, however I really have to work harder now to preserve the quality that I need. I know "Haste makes waste", so I try to take my time, even though i don't have a lot of it.
Pressure is added, as I worry about all of the work. Even today, I started ranting to a friend while doing a paper with 20 more minutes until it's due. "Why am I in school? I can live off of minimum wage. All I'm gonna be is in debt with school expenses." This little blurb is an example of the stress I'm under during this "crack-down" period.
Even though people say I can eliminate these "distractions" by sitting in a quiet room or listening to music, I can always find some other thing to do besides homework. It's only the pressure that makes me focus. I know it's not the best, but it works. I say I am going to do a little bit every day, yet I never do. I always find something... I hope I survive when my classes get obesely hard.
As I said in an earlier blog, pressure of procrastination eliminates those distractions for me, which is a big problem for me. Since I don't have a lot of time anymore, I force myself to focus on only homework. Stacking it all to the end does get rid of my distraction problem, however I really have to work harder now to preserve the quality that I need. I know "Haste makes waste", so I try to take my time, even though i don't have a lot of it.
Pressure is added, as I worry about all of the work. Even today, I started ranting to a friend while doing a paper with 20 more minutes until it's due. "Why am I in school? I can live off of minimum wage. All I'm gonna be is in debt with school expenses." This little blurb is an example of the stress I'm under during this "crack-down" period.
Even though people say I can eliminate these "distractions" by sitting in a quiet room or listening to music, I can always find some other thing to do besides homework. It's only the pressure that makes me focus. I know it's not the best, but it works. I say I am going to do a little bit every day, yet I never do. I always find something... I hope I survive when my classes get obesely hard.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
College Picking
Most situations in life end up with only you choosing the outcome and nobody else can. Others can only guide you. As ambivalent as you may be between which outcome you want, you ultimately only have yourself to turn to and not anybody else. This is kind of where I am right now with choosing which college to go to. Around this time, even last year for me this happened too, I narrow it down to two colleges I am wanting to go to. Both have its pro's and con's, and at the moment, my answer is split 50-50. This is a really hard time in my life because I know this decision will effect the rest of my life. I am kind of jealous of people who know which college they want to go to. Such a hard question easily answered for them.
As I ask my parents, they want me to go to a college I do not want to go to, so they're no help. I remember my guidance counselor in high school said that only I can choose and that nobody else can choose for me.... what a cliche answer. I know that! However I need help. I research my two colleges that I wanted to go to but still... 50-50. Maybe I do need somebody to tell me where to go, or maybe flip a coin? This is hard.
One is in the middle of a small town, about 13,000 people, and the other is in a 230,000+ populated city. Now I'm asked do I like big cities or small towns? Well, it depends on my mood or on the day. Then I am asked do I like class sizes of about 40 or about 300? There again, neither really bothers me much.
Thinking about it, I am really going to have to look at the smallest aspects of each to sway me more to one side.. but really.. I don't have time for that. I have to make my decision in about two weeks. I didn't procrastinate on researching, I am just going to need more I guess. I have friends that go to both so maybe I should ask them too. However, their opinions will differ on the school than mine because obviously everyone likes different things, so maybe interviewing them won't help that much. Oh well.. I will probably pick on the last day on a whim like I did last year.
As I ask my parents, they want me to go to a college I do not want to go to, so they're no help. I remember my guidance counselor in high school said that only I can choose and that nobody else can choose for me.... what a cliche answer. I know that! However I need help. I research my two colleges that I wanted to go to but still... 50-50. Maybe I do need somebody to tell me where to go, or maybe flip a coin? This is hard.
One is in the middle of a small town, about 13,000 people, and the other is in a 230,000+ populated city. Now I'm asked do I like big cities or small towns? Well, it depends on my mood or on the day. Then I am asked do I like class sizes of about 40 or about 300? There again, neither really bothers me much.
Thinking about it, I am really going to have to look at the smallest aspects of each to sway me more to one side.. but really.. I don't have time for that. I have to make my decision in about two weeks. I didn't procrastinate on researching, I am just going to need more I guess. I have friends that go to both so maybe I should ask them too. However, their opinions will differ on the school than mine because obviously everyone likes different things, so maybe interviewing them won't help that much. Oh well.. I will probably pick on the last day on a whim like I did last year.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Some Women Confuse Me
It was a typical Thursday night on March 11th, me sitting on my bed watching T.V. around 9:00 PM, watching some Georgetown vs. Syracuse highlights because the game was earlier that day. Trying to stay awake, at 10:30 PM i switched over to E! News. Hey, it's Ryan Seacrest. Bored, I decided to listen to him because nothing else was on. He sound excited.. he was announcing a new music video. Of who? Then the screen switched to this lady with yellow hair, (not blonde, but yellow) and circular black glasses. Hmmm, I've heard of her. It was Lady Gaga. Now, I'm not a big fan.. at all.. of her, but the upcoming video popped up and I watched it.. all nine minutes.
Afterwards, I didn't know what to say about it. It was weird. Now I don't especially like the Brittany Spears-feel pop sound to her, but the video was outrageous. Telephone feat. Beyonce, the strangest clothes were worn and the plot was about killing people. Wasn't this a clubbing song? Still baffled, I can't find why she is one of the most popular artists in the world.
I looked the video up online two days later and it was viewed 14 million times? In two days? Now I really felt like an outsider. Considering my love for music, I dwelled deeper into why Lady Gaga is so popular. Her clothes have some sort of meaning to her, like art-pieces I'm assuming. It liberates her from being normal. I really don't understand this woman, so I will leave her and her music alone for now.
I actually asked friends of mine who liked her why they did. They went to her clothing write away, making her seem gutsy to wear what she wants. I am thinking she's a role model to some, showing she is not a conformist and she will do what she wants without fear of literally millions of eyes watching her. Even though I am not a fan, I can definately see why millions idolize her while leaving the others in confusion. But maybe there is a deeper reason of why people like her besides her clothes.
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